let me tell you a story

Of a woman coming home.

A soul that decided to touch this earth for the 1st time on this planet in the wild, wonderful, raw landscapes of Namibia. A girl that grew up in Germany, tryin to fit in, trying to make my life work here. But her dreams always reminded her, that she has a second home. The wind wispered that it is out there, waiting to be discovered. She knows that her soul breaths different out there under the stars, sourrounded by the cracking sounds of the wilderness.

Now is the time, that she is about the leave her home in Germany, her study´s, her friends, everything she knew for the last 3 years to go back home. Leaving home and returning home at the same time. Not knowing what is waiting for her to be discovered.

She is an artist and her art is to become fully present. To become so still, that God can create through her. She is a student that is on the learning path to become fully embodied in the present moment. And Africa is waiting to teach her how to let go of every plan. To let go of any idea and to fully arrive in the now. In the realm that is without words, so that she can listen and learn from the elements, carried by mother earth, transformed by the fire, invited to dance by the winds and rebirthed my water.

In one of my favorite places in Namibia. Where you can feel the power of the elements.

My name is Emilia and I am here to tell you my story. Since I am a little girl my heart knew that I am home in two places. That there is a deeper meaning about my mom choosing to give birth to me in a little clay hut on a Namibian farm.

I grew up in Europe, went to school and lived a life like every other child. But whenever we packed our bags to travel through Namibia I knew that this land is going to play an important part in my life. I knew that I will go back many times.

After i finished hight school I backed my bags to fly to Namibia, for the 1st time it was only me. And I had time to just be there. To experience myself being free to choose what to do. I spent half a year there and Namibia left me with millions of questions, to big to answer. I connected with my intuitive side and realized that I can communicate with nature, with the spirits living there. It was a lot and too much to handle for my 19 year old self. I thought that I would find answers jet I discovered that I didn´t knew the question. Realizing that I need time to integrate, time to process my experiences I went back to Germany. I started my study´s and found a way of expressing myself throught art. Creating helped me to surrender into my intuition. Every painting I worked on helped me find trust in the unknown. Every layer of color took away a layer of my old. believes.

my meditation - creating with earth pigments

Last autum I started to incoperate earth into my art. Since the act of creating is not only about putting color on canvas - it is a act of transforming earth or should i say dirt into art. Mixing my own colors, and putting my prayers, my hopes, my desires into every step. So that the fished piece of art is more then just good looking.

For my bachelors project I got the opportunity to travel to places in nature that speak to my and to make art in those places. I am going back to my place of birth to deepen my conversation I had with the land. To find out, if I can listen differntly while I paint. My quest is more about searching for way´s how I can tell the story of the land then about creating pretty pictures.

I am going with the knwoing, that I know nothing, except that I need to listen. That I need to let go of any idea I have how this whole process will look or feel like, and that I don´t know what the end result will be.

So I´ll be leaving my one home again to returning home. I am about to embark on a jounrey to discover the beauty in the simplicity of the tones of the earth. My vision is, to collect earth´s and paint with them where I´ll find them. Bringing the canvas out into the field to become one with the land.

When I paint I give voice to what we often overhear. The in between, the untouchable comes into manifesation.

My plan to not only give a voice to nature throug painting but the listen and catpure storys of people who are connected to the land. Those who grow our food, those who sit in ceremony, those who carry the old story, almost forgotten story´s.

I am ambarking on this jounrey with a clear visions and I don´t now anything. I only know that she will tell me. Mother Africa will guide me and I am exited to take you alone on this path of the woman coming home.

BELOVED; YOU ARE INVITED TO COME HOME YOURSELF.